So you’re at lecture, and we’re having a conversation about men and it came out. I told you what I’ve wanted to tell you for months now. I don’t get to see your expression and this sucks. When you get home it might be awkward because I confirmed the secret over a text. This sucks. I wish I was with you in person to see your facial expression. Oh well, there’s no going back and now you know the reasons for me leaving. Breathe by Astrid is playing while i’m currently writing this and It’s so accurate to how I’m feeling right now. You’re literally my best friend, you’re that one person that when I make promises to others to not tell their secrets, you’re the exemption. You’re my person like Christina Yang would say. Gosh, so many thoughts going through my head right now, a part of me wants to be sleeping so we avoid each other when you get here. A part of me also wants to keep drinking wine and get soo buzzed that when you get home we laugh and enjoy the dinner i’ve made for us. Let’s change this song, it might change my decision. BRO screw Pandora & it’s lame ass commercials. By Your Side -Jonas Blue always seems to make me happy for some reason. I’m happy, sipped the last of the wine in my glass, jumping up and down I open another bottle and pour some more. Note to self- BUY A WINE BOTTLE OPENER*** You say you would do the same, but I know deep down inside you wouldn’t. I’m not ashamed of my decisions, I’m actually very happy and will continue with them. You’ve left lecture and are on your way home, i’m trying to get as many glasses down as I can so that it wont be soo hard to face you sober. I’ve washed dishes, put the dinner in containers. Not sure what to do next. I don’t want to start pacing, I think i’m so nervous because i’m suppose to set an example for you and what type is this ?? **Pouring another glass** This ones a bit stronger. Let me occupy myself with school papers that need to be filled out. (am i even going this semester) ?? Maybe just 1-2 classes. Bro, I just wrote your name and age on paper. It’s so surreal that you’re 19 now. Chugging this before you get here….